Oyy.

Sooo how's it going your way? Better than mine I hope. Let's see a few things: cook-out has pissed me off, im really starting to miss adam, im trying to effin eat right and it sucks, and The Ugly Truth and The Proposal we're great movies.
Tonight me and mom went to hang out with Brianna (don't ask how but somehow my mom has managed to be cool as hell) we went to cookout first and I saw Leah, Leah becomes Claudia (the district manager i'm supposed to have a interview with to get the job) and she tells me that they aren't even hiring up front she doesn't know why they interviewed me. Hmm, so now im a touch pissed off. Why why why would he even interview me? basically give me the job? and tell me they WERE hiring if theyre not? Needless to say - i'm making a phone call tomorrow.
I miss my Adam. I miss his hug and his laugh, his really stupid redneck jokes, and I miss how he kisses me with both hands around my face holding me up at the same time, because he makes me weak in the knees. Ugh - i'm so pathetically in love it's vomit worthy. Go ahead and puke I don't blame you.
Eating right sucks a lot of balls. But i've become a big girl and I need to reap what I sew. It's very very difficult for me to just up and eat right, because I am a very emotional eater and it bites not being able to eat when i'm upset or happy or mad. I just like eating and I like eating when something is wrong - it soothes me. I'm determing to try and stick to this though. Momma needs me to. If im here to help her itll make her stronger and she'll do better and I don't think I could bear to see her go through another heart attack at such a young age.
Gee ok so last night I watched The Ugly Truth :D and it's freaking amazing yes yes yes I recommend it. Very very highly. It was great. "Dude, what the fuck?" hahahahaha. It was great and tonight I watched The Proposal and to my surprise, it was berry berry good. I enjoyed The Ugly Truth better but I am not complaining. Naturally these comedy romance movies did nothing to help my pain and torture of missing Adam but they were good movies. Go watch em - they're great. I don't have much else to say, so i'm gonna let you guys go.

"He who love touches walks not in darkness." - Plato

yay for another one .

"Where love rules, there is no will to power; and where power predominates, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other." - Carl Jung

^think about that one.