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Hola mi amigos. I only have one "follower", but i've been told a few people are reading. Truth be told I started this as a online journal just for me to let out, so it really doesn't bother me that people are or aren't reading this. Anyway here's whats been happening - ill start with homelife (and be prepared im not in the mood for punctuation corrections tonight) .

Ok, so apparently while I was at Brianna's momma had a long talk with nanny about her 'nit-picking' and how she just needed to lay off because she was stressing me out. That may not sound like much to you but it means the world to me. It finally shows me that i'm not the only one who thinks that nanny has been worse on me lately, that nanny has been pointing me out instead of everyone else. It shows me that momma has noticed it too. And it's a big deal if momma confronts nanny because normally momma doesnt say anything except for me to learn to just let it slide. Anyway, that meant alot to me.

Work life: So I got my damn background check done today and took it in to Jeremy at cook-out :D:D only to find out that I DONT HAVE THE JOB. I was like highly let down. Apparently, he talked to his district manager and she wants to interview me herself and get my school schedule before she hires me and that bites alot of ass for me because I could be working all next week - but no. So now i'm emailing doc hyatt yet again to get my schedule so I can get this job but of course I cant get in touch with her. Its really frustrating the hell out of me. I just hate that I got my hopes all high just to have them smashed down. Anyway I was confused about the situation so I called Jeremy and he said basically what I just said with this added at the end "but dont worry because youre first and running" YAYYY MEE :D So im hoping to get in with doc hyatt MONDAY MORNING so I can take that damn schedule to that place asap.

Boyfriend: were good - like always. He was with me on and off today. He rode with me to get my background check done because I didnt know where to go first off then he went home and then I picked him up on the way to pick up my prescriptions from RM and then after his class tonight (which ended at 10) he came over and saw me :D yay him. But I spent most of the night next door with my neighbors. Let me tell you something those are some great people those Wheelers. :P Theyre a young couple like late 20's and they have three gorgeous blonde children. I went over and then they had to go to Harris Teeter and I went with them it was fun needless to say with an 8 year old a 5 year old and a 3 year old I believe? It was fun though because Greg is quite comical and I adore amber to pieces shes become one of my closest friends C: I really do trust her. Then we came back I walked home to see momma and I went back over and we played Wii and then thats when Adam showed up. His great grandma passed today and hes going to PA to the funeral. He says he wants me to go but im not sure if he really does or if he feels obligated to tell me that. I dont know. We'll see I suppose. He walked me home and laid with me for a bit. Ima tell yall somethin - I really really do love him. I was laying on his shoulder (all cliche like) and I shifted my chin upwards and looked at him and it was all I could do to hold back the tears because I realized - tonight that is - how much I do love him and depend on him. I am so in love with him and I do know that im in this for the long haul, whether I like that or not. He is my rock and he will never be anything less than that.

Bestt: Last night brianna had andrew, jimmy, and heather over and texted me sayin she missed me and wanted to come over but momma wanted to go :P :P silly lady anyway mom ended up convincing brianna to let her smoke in her house (which is A REALLLLLY BIG accomplishment for all you who don't know) we had a blast. Mom played guitar hero for the first time, we picked on himmy and heather the entire night because they were laying in the bed with the lights out and the covers over them all night and andrew pissed me off so all in all it was a total night. I love my mom and I love my Brianna and I love that they love each other.

Well you kids - thats all I can remember right now. Things are looked pretty balanced right now. Im not sad but im not happy. Thats life. Peace.

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." - Maria Robinson

I have another tonight :D:D

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing." - Anonymous